Crackerjackmack’s Weblog

when things in a relationship are going well, there’s very little to blog about. i’m not even overanalyzing enough to creat a good post. it’s exciting and fabulous and new to be in the beginning of such an easy, healthy, comfortable, adult relationship. because i’m not working right now and because this is new to me, of course i want to see him all the time. but i’m learning how to appreciate the times that we do see each other and not try to plan every spare moment as a moment that we can be together. this week and the coming week have been/will be tough, as we are both traveling. we are going to be in the same city for a couple of hours and are going to TRY to see each other, but i really don’t see it working out. both of us are trying to cram in a bunch of things. so i’m going to go with the flow.

we were going to try to see each other for a few hours the other night, but it didn’t work out. i texted him that i was sad that we wouldn’t see each other for more than a week, and he wrote back that he was bummed, too. that felt nice, because sometimes you wonder if the other person is missing you like you are missing them. in this case, because he has so much going on right now, and i got nuttin’. he also maybe we can do something nice next weekend, when we are both back. i like the idea of him saying, something nice. though, for me, i don’t even have to do anything special. by that point, i will just be so glad to see him that we could sit around watching tv all day and i wouldn’t care. but we both have all day friday free, and also saturday evening, so we gots options.

evening sitting here trying to think of what i could parse out and write about, there’s just nothing really to say except that it’s good. yay for good!

i ran 6.5 miles this morning and i really don’t feel like i did. granted, i was on the treadmill for most of it, due to rain, but i still feel like i should be more exhausted or sore. but i guess putting in the miles over the past few weeks is starting to pay off? i dunno. i’m feeling kinda bleh because it was on the treadmill. the past couple of days have rained, so i’ve done my running there, and though the treadmill is a far easier workout, i really don’t like it anymore! i’m all about being outside and find myself kind of unhappy at the gym. i never would have thought that.

i’m also a little nervous because i’m doing a 10 mile run on saturday, the first long run of this training program. besides being my first long run in a while, it will be the first time i’ve done 10 miles outside. but i’ve given myself permission to slow down when i need to, even if that means walking a block or two. and i’m going to do a route that takes me by my apartment every few miles, where i will put a bottle of water. i really really really hope the weather co-operates. i will do it inside if i have to (because i just know i wouldn’t make 10 miles in the rain) but that would be a drag. right now the forecast for saturday is “isolated thunderstorms”, but no point vexing over that, because who knows what will happen between now and then. i’m aiming to get up at around 4a or 430a, to be done by 7am.

what the hell, man. i’m a goddamn superstar, i can fucking do this!! i rock!!