Archive for July 7th, 2008
everything catching up
ok, my last few posts have been sloppy because i’ve been sleep-deprived and also my internet connection at home has been spotty, so everything is sort of scrabbled together in the little bits of time when i can stay online. currently sitting at a lovely cafe around the corner from my house, sipping tea, watching shmucks go to work and really enjoying my first day of unemployment. this will take a little time, but i will fully relax into it soon enough and love it.
re: training – i started my 10 week half marathon training program today. this first week won’t be too different from my normal weeks, but i am adding cross training, and it’s really a matter of getting into the mindset that this is my next endeavour. and i have to get my eating back under control. the past week i allowed myself to be a little insane. but i allowed it and knew what i was doing.
re: work – i am done with that shit for now. i’ve been getting a few updates about my replacement from IP, which will be interesting at first, and then i’ll get over it. mostly glad that i made some connection with IP and CD, so i can take away some friendships from this job. that works for me.
re: jelly – we are now exclusive, so i guess i’m figuring out what that means. we went to a ball game with some of his guy buddies yesterday, and that was cool. but it’s interesting to figure out how to act when i’m around his buddies. for example, when i walked in, he was sitting on the chair with the computer on his lap, and his friend was sitting on the couch. i didn’t know if i should lean in and kiss him hello or not. so i didn’t. i couldn’t tell if he wanted me to or not. i sort of expected that he would sort of lean up to me if he had wanted me to. that’s fine, no big deal, but it was the first time we hadn’t in several weeks. i think i did a pretty good job at just being one of his buddies, i don’t feel like i was the girl who is here and so we have to be on our best behavior. i joked with them and teased, we all laughed and had a pretty good time. it’s just a matter of seeing each other in different social situations and trying to be as much ourselves as we normally are. i think we’re doing ok. i did kiss him as soon as we were alone back in his apartment, that’s for sure. and when i left, we were just, ok, i’ll see you this week, and that’s ok. very mellow and easy.
